chocoholic.

Hmm. My left big toe's numb again. Argh. Last time that happened was two years back during the September PL camp. So annoying.

Anyway, my annoying wisdom tooth is well, seriously annoying me. I cant talk without feeling it chewing against the side of my mouth. While when i eat, it just plain hurts. Argh. It makes eating SUCH A CHORE !!! And as you people should all know, I HEART FOOD !! So yea. Idiotic tooth.

That aside, convinced Kenn to go flower-shop. Got lessons for GP and Chem settled. I still think GP is dumb. But heck la.

I'm eating so much and yet not doing any running lately, i think i'll put on another 5kg by the end of june hols at this rate. But who cares anyway. Ahhhhhhhhh. Whatever la.

I shall now go polish off my pint of chocolate ice cream from awfully chocolate in a bid to drown my sorrows in cocoa. Bah.

choir.

I really love this new skin for some weird unknown reason. Oh well. Uber funky imo.

Anyway, went to school today for math. Well, i went into the wrong lt and embarrassed myself there by going "huh ? isnt this lt5 ?". It's random la. So if you dont get, nvm.

Oh and before i forget again, serene wants to meet up this wednesday, so my dearies, anyone else keen ? Most likely a movie date i heard. =)

Then there's tpjc choir concert this wednesday evening. Most likely going with Kenneth (Liong) and Edwin (Wang), dont care Gerald la ! Hahaha. =P

Hmm.. I'm still thinking whether i should get cheryl anything. Haha. Which reminds me, kenneth ! Go buy flowers with me !! Haha. I so recall of the pae days when he so graciously accompanied me to flower-shop for alexi's birthday gift. Hahaha. Oh and alexi my dearest mind reader is coming down for choir too ! Or so he told me. =)

So looking forward to catching up. =)

pl camp. prologue.

Well, this two days in a nutshell, i went for the PL camp and it was horrible; in more ways than one.

I was actually hoping for a relaxing and fun trip but it turned out that i felt as if i was running the camp. Was even more tedious than when i really ran the camp last year. Sigh.

Ah well. More on it later.

Ps. Yea. I changed the skin + updated/added whatever links i remembered to update/add yesterday. So yea. I think the skin's very very kooky. Very kewl. x)

26thmay

Ookay..
Firstly, a big happy birthday to yingmin, so good to have you around for another 1.5 years. =)
Sorry i cant accompany you down to the esplanade, had to rush down to vj by then. Oh and yea, was almost late.

Band was quite okay. Not that impressive actually. But they did have a few pieces that i really enjoyed. Especially the last piece by the alumni. Yea. The ensembles was quite good too. Especially the percussions. Ooo. Hot drummer ! Lol. Okay, random.

But yea. Hoping the tpjc choir does not disappoint la. Seriously hoping. Sigh.

Hmm. Reminds me, need to confirm with benjamin if he's going. Wheee~!! I managed to get people to go with me for tpjc choir ! So happy. Hahahaha.

day.

I'll be doing something i never did before, i'll be posting an extract from my diary. Yup. That small lil' book i carry with me all the time.

Had my first 'major' papers today for my College Common Tests. Chinese and Economics. Went into Chinese 15 minutes late, left 19 marks worth of questions blank, walked out half an hour before my paper ended. As for economics, honestly, I don't know what i was writing... I left the room after one and a half hour, an hour before my paper was supposed to end.
I dont know what is wrong with me lately, no mood to strike, no mood for challenges. Yet i know that i dont want to live a boring and monotonous life.
I wish i know what's wrong so that i can move on.
Hope that i can finally get back to who i am. To who i was.
As Jehanne mentioned on her blog once,

I dont wanna be,
Dont wanna be
Anyone else but,
Me.

Okay, that aside, went down for the A division soccer finals with Joyce and HanRui (That chongcheng fella). VJC vs MJC. Arrived soon after the halftime break with MJ leading 1-0.
Called up Kenneth(Liong) as we reached the stadium only to be greeted by him shouting over the phone 'PLEASE DONT TELL ME YOU'RE AT THE MATCH !!'. Uber mean la Kenn.
I continued tagging Joyce as we met up with both HuiTing`s. Then we met Daniel(Wong) who was at the MJ camp passing his friends some stuff. As Joyce went back to join HuiTing and co, Daniel and I decided to stick to the front to watch. Was rather funny actually, with the MJ cheerleader beside us and the entire mjc j1 population behind us, we were shouting 'Go VJ' throughout the entire match. Ho hum.

In the end victoria triumphs with a score of 4-2 . =)

Went back with Gerald and his friends (good time bitching about Gerald in his face), and as i was at the mrt station, i saw MingYi again ! Haha. Gerald was somewhat surprised that i knew MingYi, seems like there's some rumours regarding him at VJ. Hmm.
Oh well. ALWAYS seem to run into him somehow. I recall how once i skipped track during pae to go down to queensway with TingTing to buy a new pair of shoes when i ran into him there and all. Haha. First line i said to him as i saw him was "you skipped track !" only to be rebutted by him grinning ear to ear with a "speak for yourself". MingYi ar.

Ah well. Forgive the vapid entry, my feet hurts. For some strange, unknown reason, i think i sprained it, but yea. Whatever la. Heh.

blogthings.

You Are a Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new. However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like. You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation. You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Your Perfume is Blue

Like Blue, you change and adapt frequently. One moment you're sexy and captivating... The next? Fun, warm, and inviting. You're hard to predict - but that's the essence of your charm. Power scents: Jasmine, orange flower, and lotus flower.

What Perfume Are You?

You Are a White Rose

You represent youthfulness and purity. Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time

What Color Rose Are You?

You Are Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

Creative. Expressive. Unique.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

You Are Cherry Kiss Lip Gloss

You're a total girly girl who's every guy is sweet on. You take pleasure in the simple things in life, from cute t-shirts to stuffed animals. Any guy needs to match your romantic idealism to win your heart, which is why few have. No wonder Cherry your signature flavor. It's delicious, sugary, and fun - like you!

What Flavor Lip Gloss Are You?

You Are 42% Bitchy

Generally, you're an average woman, with average moods. But sometimes... well, watch out! Sometimes, you let your mean side get the better of you. And you enjoy every minute of it.

How Bitchy Are You?

pissed.

edit: i decided to remove the post as the said person has since clarified issues. so yea. cheers people. good luck for cct. =)

=)

My ex is well, an uber nice guy. Chubby too. Hohoho.
Maybe i should sleep now, so as to ensure i wake in time for school.
I don't understand econs much.
I lose things very easily.
People say i'm a tad melancholic/eccentric/hyper at times.
Somewhere, someone has just entered this world as another leaves.
Love is something you cannot teach nor learn.
I will be a mugger ! Mugger i am !
Forever is something God is.
I never want to end up having regrets over things left undone.
I think the current US president is boring. Honestly, do i look as if i care ?
When i wake up in the morning, i'm most likely muttering nonsense to joey over the phone.
My past has been insightful.
I get annoyed when people dont keep their word one too many time.
Kisses are the sweetest from someone you like when you dont expect them.
Tomorrow i will finish studying market failure for econs.
I really should be sleeping by now. Joey'll kill me if i'm late again.
I have low tolerance for people who whine excessively to attract attention.

bsps. 6.1

Abdillah
Adeline
Alvin
Amir
Aung
Azman
Beeyin
Cho Ki
Evon
Farhanah
Guan Heng
Hanisah
Huiling
Huizing
Ivy
Jue Chen
Jun Hwee
Kheng Hwee
Lan Lan
Lionel
Liying
Maggie
Nasirrudin
Pei Qian
Ron
Rueben
Serene
Shida
Shuyun
Tina
Ting Ting
Weijie
Wei Lin
Wei Siew
Wenxin
Yong Chang
Yihui
Zi Xing


6.1 gathering this end of year my dears. I'll keep you updated.

Btw, all those who were part of us, (during the 3.1, 4.1, 5.1 days) are still part of us. We're just too confused trying to get this list down already, thus you guys're left out. For the moment. =/

As far as i can recall for now, those that left were

Elgin - srjc
PeiXiong - lost. =P
Simin - rjc
KaiLin - either pjc or cjc
WenYuan - tjc
YongQuan - still in ahs
ZhengYi - mjc

fifteen.

Okay okay. 15 things to accomplish by end week of hols.

1. Study for Bio.
2. Study for Chem.
3. Study for Math.
4. Find new mugging spot
5. Finish PW
6. Start helping with SDSC again at Changi Sailing Club.
7. Go out to sail at least once with Jovin.
8. Catch up with old friends ! =)
9. Tidy room.
10. Start on scrapebook.
11. Re-learn the guitar.
12. Organise notes.
13. Make study cards.
14. Start doing my 5km runs.
15. Know the neighbourhood. Rawr.

I guess she just needed someone to pour out onto.

I guess, everyone needs someone sometime.

I wonder when i'll find that someone.

[/melancholy]




Okay. Just wanna say that, shoo emo thoughts, welcome back to sunny land, shuyun my dear. =D

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I slept from 6pm Friday evening to 6am Saturday morning. Mmmhmm.

Feeling much better than in ages. Think i should start sleeping early, not only will it ensure i get to school on time, it'll ensure that i wont end up with a red nose when i fall flat and sleep on my lecture notes.

Now, i've successfully cleared my first set of econs notes, leaving me with another 200 pages more to go. In addition, i need to call up Red Cross to confirm certain information. please dont tell me i got it mixed up. please please please.

CheeKian went through my notebook (yes the gingerbread man one which i've 'lost' like 3 times in these 2 weeks) and was remarkably bemused by my entries. Openly laughing at my note on swimming. Yes. In addition to not being able to play pool, bridge, bowl, blade, dance, sing, i cant swim too.

Oh and if you're from a05, i'm sorry to say this but it was bloody rude of you guys to demand for the answers from him. I'm sure he has his reasons as to why he doesnt want to give you guys the answers, be it his laziness or whatsoever. He's your senior, your mentor, so no matter what, show him that degree of respect, saying that he's sturborn is definately not a way of doing so. He owes you nothing, answers or no answers. Remember that.



Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Wilfred ! Let's go watch over the hedge during the hols ! =)

Ps. Can someone tell me if it rained last night ?

anarex.

Lately school has been a whirlwind. No time to think, just laugh, laugh and laugh everything away. The class while still political in many aspects, is like an anarex to me, numbing all the unhappiness for that while. My mood swings have been hitting me hard at nights. Every day when i come home i wish that things were back to how they were. Every night i pray that it'll rain. I'm so sick of all that manipulative masquerade they're playing.

That aside, i wanna apologise to Johann whose comment that "You're like sad every night" made me decide to reflect upon my behaviour lately.

Reminds me of PAE, when i'll put on that plastic smile every morning until one day when i couldnt take it anymore and stopped. MingYi (aka mr-high-jumper-from-vs-who-is-so-bloody-stuck-up-and-wont-talk-to-you-even-when-you-try-talking-to-him) despite his usual coldness came up to me during track training that day and asked if i was alright. Khairi after trying to cheer me up but wasnt successful, dumped joseph to try to find the source of my unhappiness as we were doing our cool-down runs. They werent successful in the end, but nonetheless, thanks guys.


Ah well. That felt better. Maybe i just need to start writing more often. I need to work on my writing again. Been some eons since i wrote something decent.

To everyone reading this, especially my cousins weili and pn(i laugh whenever i think of your 'huh? i dunno.'), I'M ALRIGHT LA.


'cause i'll rise up.






And dominate.

I got too upset and decided to look at old posts.

And guess what i saw ?

Yup. Be-A-Nerd-Day shot. Crazy things i used to do just for a laugh.

Ah well.


Back to the start, my heart is heavy
Feels like it's time, to dream again
I want the sky to pour down.
I hear Your voice, and yes I’m ready
I need God's mercy and grace to drench me.
To dance upon this barren land
I need Your guidance and strength to lead me through.

Hope in my hands

Dei gratia.

I get tired of stuff easily. Too easily.

Even before things start to get tough, i find the whole issue i once stood up and fought so fiercely for redundant already. Something i can put in so much time and effort for, given up without a second thought with no regards for any implications it might bring. I honestly dont know what is wrong with me at times.

Perseverance, a virtue i lack. I dont know why. But i am usually the one who disappoints myself the most.

Commitments stretch me thin. Past issues haunting. Lack of time for God. But then, what doesnt kill you will only make you stronger.

God,
I need you to guide me, to take my hand and walk me through this.


I'll put it off.

Pull everything off,





in a wicked fashion.


By God's grace.

So what if i knew now.

It makes no difference to how things already are.

numb.

Hi people. Sorry for the lack of updates lately. No, i'm not dead yet. =)

But then, am feeling rather devoid of emotions tonight. No idea why. So pardon the vapid entry.

Common tests're coming. Well, for the record, i dont recall passing any of my tests yet. Maybe there'll be a miracle for my econs and chinese.

Things've been rather quiet lately. Okay. Maybe not really. But i'm feeling a lil' passive nowadays. Trying not to think, not to feel.

Went up siglap hill yesterday (well, thursday night actually) and well, it seems different. No longer as stunning as it was when we passed by after the runs.

I wonder why.

Anyway, school seems fine now. Schoolwork not. I'm lagging behind very badly for almost all subjects. So badly that i'm seriously considering studying during the holidays. Maybe i just might. Now all i need is a new spot seeing that coffee bean at the airport's been taken down.

The airport is changing so much. It feels different now. From when i first started studying there (more of tagging andrew there during his prelims actually) 2 years ago till now. Change is the only constant i guess.

The new blog's up. But i'm still contemplating whether i really should move.

10 random facts.

I think i did this before, nevertheless, as tagged by Kenneth.

"Rules of the game: post 10 weird and random facts about yourself, then at the end list 5 people who are next in line to do this. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read yours."

1) I used to be 52kg in sec 1, dropped to 45 in sec 2, gained 3 in sec 3, bringing my weight to 48kg, maintained at that weight till O's where i gained another 5kg, making my weight 53. I'm 51.4kg right now. =)

2) I'm indecisive. I can spend 3 hours deciding on whether to buy that shirt only to NOT buy it in the end and regret it when i get home.

3) I used to do craft stuff often. Origami, cross-stitch, scrapebooking, binding of notebooks and some bigger projects. Used to. Rarely do so now. No time, no inspiration. The occasional card on someone's birthday now. Hahaha.

4) I was witnessed to 7 times in 3 years (2001 - 2004) until i converted last year.

5) I'm the eldest cousin on my dad's side. Actually, on my mum's side too. Am on good terms with my second cousins on mum's side. See, Gerald, i'm nice la.

6) I took piano lessons when i was 3 or 4. Stopped after 2 years coz i wasnt too keen afterwhich. A tad of regret. Just a tad.

7) You know the funny lil' test we had to take during Pri 3 ? The one for streaming into the Gifted Programme ? Well, i was selected but chose not to enter.

8) Benji used to be the one who i throw my 'Philo Fits' at. Miss those days.

9) I used to have this thing for chubby guys. 'nuff said.

10) I love running in the rain. Love how it drenches me and soaks me through. Love how it seems to wash my troubles and fears away. I'm an escapist. I still am.

Now to tag people.
1) Pak Nian
2) Cheryl`WeiLi
3) Esther
4) ZuoHan
5) Lyon

Have fun dearies !

lightning.

The writers wishes that the stormy weather this morning during the polling day wasn't due to the PAP's weather machine (you know? thunder and all..) People might say he's psychic to be able to predict those things with uncanny accuracy
- Khoo Boon Chin, TPJC 06s20

Found this off the Politics forum. Well, i didnt have the heart to tell him that there was silent lightning last night as the results were announced.

Coincidence ? Maybe. Photo opportunity lost ? Definately.


It lasted for more than an hour, from the time work ended, till the time me and Leah went to Haagen Daz (again), till the time i finally reached home.

It was so beautiful. That crackle across the night sky. So sly. So silent. So dominating.

school news. rawr.

I shall mug at the airport tomorrow after sports day. Rawr.

Anyway, i just went to make a new pair of specs. AGAIN. Oh well.

Oh and i misplaced my thumbdrive. Yes, AGAIN.

BUT, thankfully, some girl found it. Yayness !

Getting from her tomorrow. Oh and did i mention that we're having sports day tomorrow ? I'm so lazy. I think i shall sit and watch them run. Lol.

I'm too bored to blog la.

Okay, today in a nutshell:
Dessie got sworn in for counil today
Daryl(ex-06s27) is in council too. Ki i'm not joking la.
Bryan(Wong)'s the new council president
Max and Debs are the new vice-presidents.

Hmm.. What else..

Oh and Sochenda is in council too.
So's this guy called Johann (love his name. he gives you a funny blank look all the time. so cute. lol.) making 06a05 the cg with the most council members. Woot.

So thus sums up the day. Wow.

I shall kope the book to help alexi pass his congratulatory the message to bryan.

acceptance.

It's often the little gestures in life that touch you.

That note with a scribbling on it shouting out "Hey, i heard what happened, dont be too hard on yourself! There's still another chance!"

That phone call at midnight asking "Do you wanna talk?"

I dont know why i bother holding onto certain issues. Certain old old issues. Ones which would've been better if forgotten and cast aside.

Recalling a conversation with Nigel (Tan).
If you could say something to someone be it he/she is from the past, present or future, what would you say ?

"I'll choose to speak to myself from the past. I'll say to her that 'no matter what you've done. It's alright. Really. Everything's alright.'"



The bad thing is loving too much, lest you lose sight of what's really important in this world. Love may be a really nice way to feel, but it's too easily manipulated and twisted to enjoy fully.
- Wilfred (the one with the uber fluffy hair and extremely small eyes)

I'm not afraid to lose.

I'm just afraid of not doing my utmost and having regrets later.

of peanuts and work

Went out for lunch with JianYong yesterday. He looks like a peanut-head with his new hairstyle. *snicker* Thanks for the treat (again) though.

Anyway, work yesterday was insanely busy. And there werent even any regulars. Leah was whining when she didnt see Ochi for the week. She's obsessed with him la. Hahahaha.

Oh and i think work must be getting to the better of Leah, she was laughing like crazy when i said "Eh, today Oda and Xingxing* never come"

*Xingxing = Gorilla in chinese = Murakami, one of the regulars. Nicknamed by the old waitress due to him well, looking like one.

When prompted, her reply was that i made it sound as if Murakami is Oda's pet gorilla. Oooookay..

On a sidenote, SYATP Australia is coming again. In another 9 days actually. I'm considering organising one in school - especially with the current responses from Christians in the forum.